Tuesday, April 27, 2010

DAY 86 - REALITY SINKING IN

I got my offer packet today and reviewed all the information. I have to admit that I am excited. Now reality is sinking in... they want me to start on May 10th. I have been given a temporary living allowance and I am trying to perform miracles with this money. At least in my mind I thought this plan would work. I would stay in a dumpy efficiency and save my pennies. I would seek out the cheapest airfare and see the family every 2 weeks or so over the course of a month in a half. Now as I think about the reality of this plan - it already does not work -- chaching (that is the sound of money leaving my bank account). The first dilemma is that my daughter has her recital on Sunday, May 16 at 3:30 p.m. I just went out the week before. I approached the subject with her and then she got all weepy. Ok, the plan to skip the recital is down the drain. Then it is my birthday on May 21 - it seems kind of depressing to be alone on your birthday - alright - I can deal with this and stay in PA. Maybe I will get the forced mercy birthday celebration from new colleagues - awkward. Then I think the following week is labor or memorial day (that will be a long weekend - should be with the family). Then it is my brother in laws and soon to be sister in laws wedding - don't and can't miss that in mid June. I guess the story is that I have a lot of events coming up - yikes - too busy to work apparently.

LOCAL CONTACT
When we went down to check out PA as I told you, we hooked up with the head of the Jewish Community Center. He is a great guy that knows everyone. I wrote and told him that I would be coming down alone soon. I had been given two properties from the company to consider for temporary living in the area. He wrote back and gave me a name of a guy from the community that will rent me property for this purpose. I am supposed to call him. It feels really awkward -- I feel obligated to call and intrigued. What happens if this is just a vacant space that he has not been able to rent - or it sucks. I hope I did not get into something I can't get out of. I am sure it is fine - no I am not actually. It is weird how much trust I am putting in a man I barely know. Our only connection is that we are both Jewish....

REALIZATION - Plans in theory and plans in reality are two different things. Who am I kidding? I hate living in a dump and I have to see my family frequently. I don't want to miss Mother's Day, Recitals, Long Weekends and Weddings. I am going to make it work. So I don't eat.. I just bought a fancy dress for the wedding and a little less of me would probably work better. Realization 2 - I need to trust people as I am going to a new place. How bad can a fellow Jew steer another Jew? We will see... I am sure it is fine!! I mean he is taking a risk too - I could be a total psycho and he is laying his reputation on the line. The things we do for religion!!

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