DAY 73 - REJOICE

Today I went to the funeral of my old family nanny Rachel. It was in Detroit and I was feeling a little blue that she had passed away. I asked myself if I had done enough for her over the years, should I have called more and really hoped she knew I loved her. I was very also concerned that she may not have had a lot of friends as she was older and had not been married or had kids. Boy, was I pleasantly surprised. The entire ceremony was about rejoicing, praising g-d and singing uplifting songs. It turns out that Rachel touched many many peoples lives. It was incredible for me to hear about her other life. Her involvement in her church and community. As a matter of fact, this funeral lasted over 2 hours as 1 hour was dedicated to people speaking about how special she was and how she touched their lives. My husband commented that this is the first time that he was sitting in a warm room for over 2 hours and did not fall asleep. All and all it really made me think about character and living a pure life. That is something Rachel did each and every day. It was a pleasant surprise and made me feel very honored to be such a part of her life.

SKIN SITUATION
I have an interview in two days and wouldn't you know I am a cyclopes again. It doesn't help when my husband fixates on my zit and cracks jokes about my third eye. I am once again on the aggressive skin care regime to get it off my face. I keep imagining the scene in Austin Powers when he fixates on the mole (spy) who had a mole or Uncle Buck and the principle with a growth on her face. I think he threw her a quarter to get that thing knawed off. I really need to take care of this one quick.

WHAT DO I DO WITH MYSELF?
For as long as I have been off of work, I still have not developed a schedule - which is my outplacement's kiss of death warning. I find myself questioning what I am going to do each and everyday. It starts out with me checking my e-mail and reviewing my searches overnight. Then I drift, I start looking at the gossip on line, review the sales of clothes I do not need, go to linked in and then facebook. Next thing I know I am off doing chores around the house, chatting with my husband, going for a run and then getting a diet coke. I really have no purpose and I am certainly not looking for a job in the manner that would exhibit success. This is really bad...

REALIZATION
I think Rachel's church has the right philosophy about turning sadness into thanks that the deceased were a part of our life and that now they can be one with g-d. It is a really comforting message and made me feel at peace when I left the church. It also made me want to continue to strive for honest living and intentions so I have no baggage when I meet my maker. Realization 2 - I should by stock in Proactiv (company that makes products for bad skin). I mean if it works for Jessica Simpson why not me? Realization 3 - I have always been unconventional and I just pray it works for me when it comes to finding employment.