DAY 85 - POST OFFER PROCESS

I have officially begun the post offer pre hire phase. This is the time where you have an offer contingent on background check, references and drug screen. I know I really don't have anything to worry about ... but I do... What happens that the one person they know who knows me doesn't like me? What happens if they change their mind .. cold feet? What happens if I was too much of a pain in the butt during negotiations? What happens if I ask too many questions? I am trying to balance my need to know and control everything with letting the process just move forward. I think I may just be crazy.. but I am only sharing it with my loyal followers.

Everyone has been coming up to me and congratulating me. It is hard to get too excited until all these checks are completed. I am cautiously happy but not moving forward on other activities that would in fact jinx the offer. I mean I should really be getting the house in order, buying some work clothing and saying my adieus... and I do nothing but the usual. I have always been superstitious and probably a little OCD too!!

My family has been super supportive and happy and yet sad that I am leaving. It is really nice that they are so proud of me. I find it funny that I am actually going to a smaller company doing the same role than my previous one. This company has a stronger name recognition so I guess it means something more to them. I sure hope I get a huge discount on chocolate cause everyone is hitting me up for some.

DOING HOMEWORK

I am writing this blog right now because my daughter has taken me over the edge. I have realized that I have no patience for homework and all the lame excuses she comes up with not to do it or drag it out. IT was a beautiful day today and she made an agreement with her dad that she would do her homework after her playdate and dance class... big mistake. Now she is whining that she is hot and tired and wants to do it in morning. Yet she does not want to wake up early to do it. After an episode with math homework which could totally be done in 5 minutes yet she managed to screw it up and it took over 20 minutes with a lot of mistakes... I lost it.. completely came unglued. I can't stand wasting time and shotty homework... I go nuts..... Thank goodness for some therapeutic blogging. Have I told all of you how much I appreciate teachers.. what an impossible job.

Realization - Therapy would be a good option for me. I have gotten so paranoid that the shoe is going to drop and spoil this opportunity - I even realize my mental illness. Realization 2 - I am not going to win mother of the year award tonight. I need to learn patience instead of freaking out on my daughter. Who is in control mommy or an eight year old? By the way as I am writing this, I was called into my bedroom because my daughter put two disks in the CD player and it sounded like the machine would blow up... this is my night... yikes.