DAY 71 - SPRING BREAK

I was busy today with errands and enjoying the nice weather. It occurred to me at about 3:00 that I have not really done anything with the job search. It is like I am getting used to not working. I have created a new routine and it just seems since forever that I actually went to work. Wow... I am morphing into a suburbia housewife. I even forgot for awhile. Scary....

RUSSIAN ROULETTE
The calls have slowed down in the last two weeks and I am not sure if it is because of the holidays and spring break or if I am not keeping my karma open for new opportunities. It is like I am so laser focused on this particular job that I have taken myself off of the market in a way. I am really playing Russian Roulette because this opportunity can dry up so fast that I will be left with a fresh search - which honestly I am not thrilled to start again. I am getting so bored reading, hearing etc.. about new opportunities. They all sound the same and I just want this part to be over.

THE HOUSE
As we are thinking about a potential move, we are starting to look at our house in a different way. It does not help that I obsessively watch HGTV. There is a show that is on a majority of the time that deals with staging for a home sale. I am appalled with some of the homes on this show. However, when you take off the rose colored glasses, you start noticing your home is a dump too. We have cracked paint, holes in our ceiling, drawers that are falling apart in the kitchen and I am sure I carpet is a nightmare due to our old dogs who took many liberties in our home. It is really a daunting task.

PUTTING THINGS INTO PERSPECTIVE
When I was growing up, we had a housekeeper named Rachel. She was from Detroit and we became fast friends. She practically raised me and also introduced me to some very important matters such as soap operas, how to avoid loser guys and the penny slot machines. She was a part of the family and a huge influence on me as I grew up. Last week she passed away after having a stroke outside the casino. I will really miss her but I was glad she went out doing what she loved.

REALIZATION

Deep in my heart I know this is going to work out and I will be employed soon. I do have minor freak outs but I am feeling much more settled recently. I just hope my intuition is correct. Realization 2 - It is important to focus on the important things like family, friends and enjoying each day of life. This unemployment is a minor blip on my life. Having meaningful relationships that help you grow and be connected is the most important thing. Rachel was one of my anchors and I appreciated her. I hope she is having fun at the big casino in heaven... peace and love.