Here we are again - on my favorite day - Monday. As usual, I woke up lacking motivation to get into the job search again. This time I am not panicking since I have discovered my Monday pattern or apathy and sheer lack of purpose as I embrace another week of recruiters, bad job ads, and worthless e-applications etc..
I am still recovering from my full weekend of family birthday celebrations. My husband, daughter and dog all celebrate their special day within a week of one another. Each year, we throw a weekend of parties including a family dinner and then a kid's party for my daughter. Of course, through the whole process, my daughter never seems to sleep past 7:45 a.m. even when we go to bed late which happened every evening. Needless to say, when Monday arrives and we have to wake up early, not feeling like jumping out of bed and dancing the can-can. This is the only thing that I find frustrating about parenthood, I will never be able to sleep in. It is so aggravating because I love to sleep and think I am damn good at it. But since going suburbia I never get to sleep later than 8:30 a.m. If it is not the kid, it is my husband's snoring, or the dog barking. Even when I go away, such as my interview, my room was next to a family with loud kids... aaahhh. I guess sleep is overrated
Anyways, back to the blog at hand (since I am writing about my journey of unemployment), the whole weekend consisted of people asking how the job search is going. I found myself with my canned speech about how things are going well and that I may be close on one out of state opportunity. It then occurred to me, I have been out of work a long time already and I basically am down to one potential opportunity and the rest has dried up for one reason or another. I am kind of screwed. I mean if this one does not work out - I am back to the beginning again. That would be awful, since I am a lazy job seeker.
What is also scary that I need to start worry about money a little more than I have in the past. I thought for sure I would be employed by now. I never imagined that I would commit to writing this blog for 66 days. I am starting to realize that I am going stale. I am about to go on the one day old bread rack. It is really time to get serious and get a job.
One of the philosophies I have been used is to let it work out organically. Trust fate and the powers above me to help. I think things are coming together but what happens if this strategy gets me know where... I may become a greeter at Walmart. They may not even hire me because I am not always that friendly... yikes.
OTHER GOOD THINGS
I am trying to break this pre freak train I am riding on above, so let's switch to another topic. I want to thank everyone for the positive feedback I have been getting on this blog. You often wonder if anyone is reading my ranting and raving as I diligently try to write every business day. It makes me feel great when people can relate to what I am going through... So I do hope this is helpful to others who are unemployed to make them feel at a minimum that there is a bigger lunatic out there then them. I mean I just never thought I would be out of work this long... aaah..
It is also nice to get the morale support from friends and family. My brother -in law always mentions how he is kept current on what is happening with me through the blog. Actually what really happens is that his fiancee reads it everyday (thanks C) and provides him the executive briefing - isn't that hysterical. She is such a doll and can't wait for their wedding. She puts me to shame when it comes to productive work and motivation. She has planned her entire wedding and showed me the binder this weekend. Incredible work with a real eye on the detail. I should have her coach me on how to manage an effective job search. I am sure if we compared binders - her work wins.
REALIZATION
Being unemployed really takes fortitude to go the distance. It gets so depressing and long. Before you know it, you have been without a job for 66 days. One day you can have several opportunities brewing and then next moment - you got nothing. Continuing optimism and hope is the only way to keep this moving. It does get tough!!! Realization 2 - I need to set goals and milestones that are concrete. Even though my future sister in law has a much more fun milestone than I - she has something specific and tangible and therefore is making things happen to meet that commitment. I need to adopt her mentality and set hard dates for myself with outcomes. That is the only way to obtain a great career again.
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