Day 50 - IT'S A ROLLER COASTER BABY

Last week was a difficult time. It is interesting when you think you are in a good place and then BAM... your emotions go skyrocketing down. I really thought I was having a mental breakdown. I am not sure if the rejection from the San Antonio company did it - or my false sense that everything was going to be fine. Anyways, I really was having a hard time recovering.

I was really nervous about my emotional state as I had a phone interview on Saturday. I just was not feeling confident but I could not reschedule the meeting. The opportunity sounded great and the interviewer was really nice. But I felt I was completely bombing. I felt like we could never get to that satisfying place. I answered the questions but it felt flat. Kind of like a diet coke with no fizz. You want to almost halt the call and say - You are a good person and I am a good person - we just are not connecting. It really is an unsettling feeling. These are the times that you appreciate being married and it made me go hug my husband and ask him never to divorce me!!! All of sudden you appreciate the dry sense of humor and the dirty underwear that falls next to the hamper not in it...

I went to lunch with my friends and they cheered me up. But it is hard to admit that I am so emotionally fragile. Weird... cause I am kind of a tough nails type of gal.

Well good news on this entire front. I actually did not blow the interview and I am going in for a face to face. All that drama for no reason. I think I am getting my one two back also.

REALIZATION
It is natural to feel down as this is a process. It is also ok to lean on your friends and admit moments of weakness. Also, I do really appreciate "my people" otherwise "my inner circle" that keeps me on my path to success.