Day 47 - DISCONNECTING

GOING OUR OWN WAY

I am starting to notice that as each week goes by, my informal group of others unemployed are talking less. Even when we do speak, the fire, the passion, the interest in one another is beginning to fade. I guess we are accepting our new reality and adjusting to this life. So I am finding that I am moving to my new support system, my general suburbia friends are replacing my work friends.

I am doing many more lunches, getting my nails done and finding myself talk about house and mom things. I know what is happening at my daughter's school, I am catching up on the friends gossip and slipping farther and farther away from work type information. As a matter of fact, work talk is not exciting like it used to be... weird

I find my days filled with errands, cleaning and made up priorities. I am starting to viewed as a regular at the gym with the other stay at home moms. It is so strange!!! Am a channeling the soccer mom persona. I have not felt a desire to get a mini van so I guess I am OK right now.

JOB SEARCH
I am really getting very lazy about my search. Everyday I hear about an opportunity and if it sounds decent I pursue it. I am living in this false reality of "let them come to me and seek me out." I am not sure if I am getting cocky or just passive.

THE BACHELOR
I have always been a fan of reality TV (I won't lie) but I really have no life when I am upset with who Jake picked as his fiancee. It is clear that she was able to "rock his world" as he eluded to with his other gal Tenley. He mentioned to her that their chemistry was a little off. That was code for "you are a nice girl and are not exciting in the bedroom." Now I do not know Jake or the gals but it was hard to watch the love montage of pictures with him and Vienna. To up the cheese factor the song was "On the Wings of Love." The song should have been "Tik Tok."

REALIZATION
I think we all search for a role to play in life. I believe cause I am between two worlds that I am reverting back to my roots prior to work. I suppose it makes me safe until I land a position. I guess that is OK - it helps to define my purpose. Realization Two - I need to shut off the TV and read a book. It is better for the soul.