Day 49 - A DEEPAK CHOPRA DAY

I woke up feeling a little off this morning and not knowing why. I thought I was well on my way to feeling good about where I was in life and having grappled with this unemployment situation.

I decided to start frantically looking once again for leads on positions. I also inquired about the San Antonio position that I had received previous good feedback on and was kind of psyched to go out for an interview. I heard today that the company is more interested in another candidate. Although I am fine with it, as my family was not totally thrilled to move to San Antonio, I was bummed. Was I upset that I had got myself all stoked with the possibility of this role or was it that I had received positive affirmation from the interview? Either way, being told that I was not the number one candidate was a major blow to me. Now any logical person would say, "who cares or it was meant to be" and I know they are correct but it is a rejection and that is tough.

I have been reading a lot of self help books to evolve myself to higher good. I truly want to be a better person and rise above all this minutiae. However, I find myself getting sucked into it and feeling sorry for myself. My first inclination was to find chocolate and eat my problems away, but that would only create another issue for me. I am trying to achieve Life Time Member Status at Weight Watchers - week 3 of 6.

I decided to go outside and run. It was a cold and sunny day and I felt this was exactly the remedy I needed to cure my blues. Sun and exercise always seems to be a natural boost for me. I also thought listening to my self help tape of Deepak Chopra would provide me the clarity I needed to "LET IT GO!"

So I started on my run and about 30 minutes into it - I realized that I did not have a clue what Deepak was saying. I had purchased this download for about $20 and have heard great things about him. This has been my fourth attempt to be enlightened by him. He is a medical doctor by trade and his concepts are so so deep and physiological that I get lost. I feel guilty not understanding and little embarrassed too that I don't quite have the intellectual capacity for his concepts. Finally, I threw on some disco tunes and High School Musical songs and finished my run. I have to admit that I did feel better about the whole situation.

REALIZATION
When you are looking for a position, there is going to be a lot of rejection. This is a fact and we as a job seeker I need to toughen up. If I felt that I was prepared for the interview and did the best and adjust with other feedback than so be it. Realization 2 - Sometimes listening to shallow upbeat music is the absolute remedy for feeling down. Deepak does not always save the day.