I woke up today feeling a little blah.. It actually started on the weekend when I pretty much slept the majority of the weekend. I had no energy.. I am not sure if it was the head cold that is looming around me or depression. I didn't actually feel blue, I just was tired. Moving on, I am doing this new thing that is totally annoying. I walk around questioning if anyone has job satisfaction.
Generally these thoughts are fleeting. When I get waited on by the waitress, or the seamstress or the salesperson, I just subtly think - are they happy? But where it starts to get aggravating is when it interrupts my entertainment.
On Sunday, I spent $60 a ticket to go see Allegria with my daughter and her friend. This is the probably the fifth rendition of Cirque De Sole. It reminds me of when River Dance continued to come back with some different title but the dancing and songs were exactly the same. I digress again. My daughter's friend wanted to go and I thought what the heck, it is something different. I was a little embarrassed to tell my husband because he swears that Allegria sounds like a fake word that was made up to sound like a fancy production. It is hard to say it without laughing.
We went to this acrobatic circus and the stunts the entertainers did were mind boggling. There were people who twirled and twisted through the air, did incredible things with hula hoops and juggling and the most disturbing bends one has ever seen. Instead of being taken to the magical place, I started pondering if these folks had job satisfaction? Did the clowns who provided comic relief get sick of doing the same shtick in every city over and over again?? Did the tumblers wish for a better life than being circus monkeys??? I could not get these thoughts out of my head. How could these entertainers get inspired city after city? They are probably staying at cheap motels with a $50 a day stipend - how could that be fun? So instead of just enjoying my $120 worth of a 2 hour production, I let my stupid mind run rampant....
MONDAY GRIND
I started the typical search by reviewing the job boards and have come to a realization. All the same stupid jobs that I have applied to are still being advertised for over a month now. It is so irritating to see them out in full force on every job board. You know you have been unemployed when you see the cycle repeat itself.
It is like when my first fashion repeat circled around and I realized I was getting old. When I was about 14 the double belt was really in style. I thought I was the coolest girl with this belt that wrapped around my long shirt twice. Then 10 years ago, the double belt was back again... Probably did not last as long as one would hope.. but the fashion magazines were definitely showing them. So getting back to the topic at hand, it occurred to me that there most likely are those perma jobs always open. The same ones that tease us newly unemployed and entice us to apply. But in the end of the day, there is no hope that anyone will actually ever get hired.
BABYFACE
I decided to end my day, when my 18 year old pug came up to visit me in the office. He first tried to see if there was a food opportunity. When there were no cookies for him, He went into the hall and looked me straight in the eye. He proceeded to pee a river on my cream carpet. Yeah I felt the same - Piss on this day!!
REALIZATION
I will get inspiration back and the colors will fall into place. I had job satisfaction when I was employed and I am sure the acrobats love what they do too. They get a rush from the applause and acknowledgement of their unique talents. Realization two - Babyface had a good day!! We just forgot to let him out and he just had to urinate. Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar
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